I have one confession…
When I got back from US , I was 14 years old and entered local junior high school in Tokyo. One day in the class, social teacher talked us extreamly shocking story. It was about the experience of Japanese soldier during the war in China. The soldier had to kill Chinese mother and baby with bayonet by order. Since then soldier never able to shoot people ,kept shooting to the sky in the battle field. And never ever able to sleep peacefully in his life, wakes up in the middle of the night even by one small noise still now….
Since then I was never able to proud of myself as Japanase. I kept thinking how I can apologize to Chinese people , I shamed and suffered by the guilt so much about it.
Only the way to relieve myself from the shame and suffer from the guilt was to throw away my identity as Japanese from my conscious.
Human beings were and are still making crimes and sins to other human beings. Such as slavery of the Africans , genocide in the North and South America, ethnic cleansing in everywhere , colonies , house demolishing , occupation, bombing in the middle east etc. People can do such of those cruel things because of the categorizing people and separate us and them , self and others.
If nobody cares about nationality , race , religion or whatever something to categorize people , there will be no discrimination , no hate speech ,and nobody has motivation for the war. I still shame and suffer from the guilt and that’s why I cannot stop myself caring about the people who suffers by being discrimination and/or being attacked by the occupier. I can never be in the side of any goverment nor identical thought. I only be a side of the human being who suffers.
By the way , this is why I never give a shit about Olympics.